Thursday, September 11, 2008

Just A Dream


You all know that we are on the house building roller coaster. Before we even had our plans drawn we presented it to a builder to make sure it was in the price range. He assured us it was and so we moved on. This week we find that the "dream house" is just going to be that, a dream. The bids are way to high for my pocket book and my peace of mind. I just don't want my whole life to be about making a house payment. I have been trying not to be a brat, but I had my moment of tantrum when the dream of having a library was flushed away. However, this much I know. I want to be where Heavenly Father wants me and I know I am. As for the house I know he would have us use our heads and there is no peace in getting into something you know you will have trouble paying for. We are still planning to build and are in process of making the modifications necessary to fit in the budget. The bottom line to me is being able to be home with my boys...as for them feeling gypped about the loss of the house, not going to happen. I asked Issac what made a good house and he said that he thought a great big pirate sword would be important. That I think I can do! So good-bye to the dream house of old and hello to the dream that means more to me. My family, my commitment to financial freedom and my desire to live with what I "need" as opposed to all the things I "want".

5 comments:

Nate and Julie said...

I know how you feel. When it comes down to being a brat, or being able to stay home and be th mom to your family, the family always wins. I'd love a library in my house too, but I'm not willing to work a full time job to fund it. You will be blessed for your decision, and you'll probably love what you decide on more than you imagined. As for your kids not realizing you're a girl, it's probably because you are so fun and adventurous that they don't even realize that you're not just like them!

Lisa said...

What a crappy disappointment, I'm sure! But I'm so proud of you for being so smart and strong to look past "wants". That's really hard for most people in the world and I know you will be so grateful you did it! Living financially stress-free while staying at home raising your kids is such a blessing. And the house will still be beautiful and so fun to have built!!! (And hey, you can always build an entire wall of shelves in your family room or bedroom for your library, right? It'd be awesome... I can just picture you on one of those tall, moving ladders reaching for those high-up books if your 8-foot tall Lindon is not home...

Nichole said...

You a brat? Not very often. I am sorry about the reality crash!! I agree so not become house debt it is a terrible place to be. The boys will love whatever you decide on. I am sorry about the dissapointment I actually understand that a little too well.

Piper said...

Heather... I don't know the words... you brought tears to my eyes. (technically I am still a teenager, so technically I am still allowed to be dramatic) I am not even going to try and console you... I am just going to be disappointed with you.

Perla said...

sorry about the disappointment! that is very sad, especially since you had talked to somebody and really thought it was going to work! but i love your attitude and i'm sure that you are going to love your new home and you'll be blogging about how dreamy it is before we know it! and fyi, i found a cool pirate sword for andre at dollar tree the other day, so, you know, that helps make the house dreamy too!